Apology

For the past few days, I’ve been talking to someone who I thought I would never speak to again. An ex, honestly I still love them. They just don’t understand my feelings about them because it’s hard to say and I prefer to write songs about my feelings so, here’s a song I’ve written when they left me.

Numb me down to the core
Cause love don’t live here anymore
And we fought hard but we lost the war
Without you, what am I living for?

And I know I can’t take back, all the things are dead
But if I had one wish, I would wish for one more chance

Somewhere our fear took all control
That’s when I turned cold
Won’t you give me one more chance?

Cause I’m a lost river that’ll never reach the sea
When you’re not here with me, when you’re gone
I’m sick to my bones, I don’t feel natural
Without you I’m not whole, when you’re gone

Gone, gone, gone, gone
Gone, gone, gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

Drove to your house in the night
Couldn’t sleep ’til I made it right
I’m sorry for all the pain
For lovin’ you in vain

And I know I can’t take back, all the things are dead
But if I had one wish, I would wish for one more chance

Cause I’m a lost river that’ll never reach the sea
When you’re not here with me, when you’re gone
I’m sick to my bones, I don’t feel natural
Without you I’m not whole, when you’re gone

So I’ll leave the night light on
In hopes that you will find your way
And make it, safely home
And in the eye of the storm
Our love will be the only thing
That keeps us holding on

Cause I’m a lost river that’ll never reach the sea
When you’re not here with me, when you’re gone
I’m sick to my bones, I don’t feel natural
Without you I’m not whole, when you’re gone

Gone, gone, gone, gone
Gone, gone, gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

I’m sorry. I never reported you to the police because I’d lose you again and I don’t want that to happen. I understand that you don’t love me as you’re in love with someone else.

I guess you’ll never find out who special you really are to me. You are my shooting star, my soul mate. I loved that way you made me laugh and all the jokes we had. When we met on February the 4th, it was magical. I’ve never had a spark with someone so fast. It was like we were meant to be together. Some days I listen to our song, Coldplay Yellow. It makes me cry as all I think about is you and how you made me happy and the future we planned.

It’s sad to say goodbye to someone who I think the world of. I guess you’ll never read this as you’ll be busy with other stuff in your life.

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